In the past year I have been channeling writings. They most often happen at about 5:00 AM. Thus far I have not typed them all and I have not yet decided what to do with them. However, it was clear that Conversation With God was meant to go on this page. I should add that even the title was channeled. I will be adding so if you are interested and want to see the latest posting, just scroll down as I will keep it in order. If anyone is interested in communicating, please use my contact page. I am also interested in hearing if there is any interest in a blog page. I have no idea how often I will be adding a post.
Conversation With God
Awake and unable to sleep, I decided to listen to the Chanting of OM. All efforts at sleeping did no good. At first some worrying thoughts came to me so I reminded myself to think of something pleasant and I did. As I was lying there daydreaming, suddenly there was this beautiful smell. It was the smell of wet earth and grass and it was so grounding and beautiful. I breathed it deeply. It spread into my body and it was so healing and quieting. After a bit, the smell changed and I cannot recall it as easily as the first smell. I can say that it is a scent I have experienced before. It is easy to recall the peace it brought and now I was breathing in that peace over and over. At some point, I decided to breath some of that peace out to the greater consciousness to help others. I was told not now, this is for you. You must learn how to hold that peace when there is none around you. It is important to breath in peace and hold it, that is how you help others. You can teach them to do it themselves. As I was doing this, I saw an image of the Trump family. They looked so empty and it felt like a strong wind would blow them away. They felt like empty shells and for a moment I felt compassion for them. How things can look on the outside often has nothing to do with what is on the inside.
March 24, 2019
For quite some time, I have guided to share my personal spiritual journey and put it on my webpage. However, I had no idea how to do that. What would I say? Which part would I focus on? I was not clear on what exactly that would look like.
About five AM this morning I was guided as to how to do that. It is clear to me now that it is this part of my journey I am to share. They are saying that I am not alone, there are others, and sharing my journey may help them as well. We are all in this together. All is as it should be and trust the process. The idea of sharing such personal spiritual experiences is not an easy task for me as I am a private person. The idea of sharing all of this in a public way would not be my first pick. So, is this not typical of a spiritual journey? Always reaching outside of your comfort zone, stretching.
So I will start with this. Last night I had a lot of trouble sleeping. My mind was whirling. In the past year and a half my world has been flipped on it's ear. I have lived in an area I have thought of as home for most of my life and now it no longer feels like home. The ties that once bound me no longer exist. It almost feels like I am being pushed out with absolutely no idea of where "home" might be. If I believe that all is as it should be, then that means there is nothing wrong here and it is time to embrace the process. However, that does not always make it easy. There has been quite a range of emotions one might expect under such circumstances. So this is what I am thinking at this point. Experience all the emotions, learn what they have to teach and spend time connecting to source daily. Do not judge and listen to the counsel in your heart. It is time to create and step into who we are and create the world we want to live in. All that I have written is spiritually guided and some of it is channeled.
Today I went to my Masseuse who is a woman with great love in her heart and that love is manifest throughout her space. She is kind, she is gentle and she is caring. She said something today that has me thinking. She said "you have a lot of sadness and when you come here you talk about it." I think about this for a minute and then I say to her "maybe the massage releases the sadness." She acknowledges this may be true. However there was more for us to say. She made some suggestions I could do to help me with the sadness. I thought about this a great deal and I am not yet sure how I feel about that. She also says something else that is true. She pointed out that for empaths it is hard for there is always so much that is painful on the news. My mentor at Delphi said something very similar recently. She said,regarding current time, the energy can seem so harsh. They both talk about Love and basically coming through the heart. It is clear they both know what they are talking about for they both live it. So, this has brought up a whole bunch of thoughts, some of which involves authenticity. At the moment there is much going on for me personally as well as in the greater consciousness that can bring about sadness. New beginnings also means endings. We are all on the precipice of great change. A change that will take us to a new beautiful pure Earth. A time of peace in the feminine energy. We are are in transition and are being bombarded almost daily with intense energy and time seems to be moving faster. I keep thinking in circles. Should I follow the suggestions of a kind loving woman or do I find my own way of dealing with these issues? I think my Big S Self wants to find the way through, just as I have had to find my way through other stuck emotions and situations. Maybe we all have to find our own way. Maybe what is important is that we find our way. Who knows, perhaps I will find her way is the right way for me as well. For me it is about being authentic and for that, you must be true to yourself. Perhaps I just have to trust the process whatever that is for me. Perhaps I have to explore what is true for me. There is more to my sadness then she is aware of, some of it personal. I am on the precipice of "something", I can feel it. It is a time of change and once again I must trust the process and take the step into the unknown. This change started for me at the beginning of 2018 when all of what I have known and trusted started falling away until only the bare bones remained. So though I understand the wisdom of her words and feel the love she is sharing, I know deep down I must find my own way for two reasons. It is part of my journey to do so and I must trust the process that is taking me to new beginnings and places. My life is evolving and as yet I do not know to what. Many things have come to my mind, all kinds of ideas, some I will explore. This is a time for us to become our authentic self. Maybe this is one step in that process. What does sadness mean to me and what do I learn from it? What role will it play in helping me find more of my authentic self? I have no doubt there will be other opportunities to learn more.
Grief/Expansion Written 4/14/2019
The world we have trusted no longer exist. So what do we do now? Are we seeing this play out in our own world.? Is our personal world reflecting the energy that is occurring in the collective? Yesterday I had to put to rest my sweet and valued 16 year old cat. This was very painful and it is part of a trend that has been happening for quite some time now. It feels like the clearing that is happening with the greater consciousness is playing out on some level in my own personal world. We are making room for the new life and world that is coming. In the past year there has been a lot of clearing of the old in my own personal world just as we are clearing away much as a collective. the old patriarchal system is dying and much is being revealed so that it can be cleared and healed. That which no longer serves, has to be released. So how does this apply to Scampers? Scampers leaving provided room for Luna, our rescued kitty to claim her own space. Endings mean new beginnings. I love Scampers and forever will, but as Buddha will say all things are always changing and it is inevitable. In the loss of my Scamps, there is now space for Luna. So what are we saying to you? As the old falls away, the new is born. Think of the figure 8, the infinity symbol. It is not always easy to deal with the loss of the old ways, but do not close yourself off to the possibilities of the new beginnings. Just as Kathleen grieves for the loss of her cat, she will also see Luna's expansion. What was old holds value. Just because it's time is passing, does not mean it is forgotten and useless. Think of it as building blocks. The old paves way for the new. We are all in a time of transition. It is not always easy to navigate this transition. Do not let others tell you how you must move forward or tell you when you must move on. Find your own heart and always be true to who you are. Do not judge yourself by others. Trust your own connection. We are not all the same! So what is the gift in Scamper's leaving, it is the expansion of Luna, a new sense of freedom for her. See that in a bigger picture. What we may see appears to be the destruction of our world, in actuality, it is the beginning of the expansion of our world. It is the beginning our our expansion as individuals. We are changing!